Changed

It’s been a rough 12 months, to say the least.  Some ups, lots of downs, some smiles, lots of tears, and I am different.  Good?  Bad?  I am not sure.  Different is all I am sure of. 

The pain of losing someone you love is terrible.  However, when that person is your best friend, your rock, the pain is indescribable.  It was 6 months ago today that I knew it was over.  I remember the feeling that came over me as the doctor was talking.  I knew it would be the last time she would be admitted to the hospital, the last time I would see that doctor, the last time I would breathe normally, the last time I would have hope.

I see her every day.   She is with me.  I talk to her and see little signs that she is answering me.  But it isn’t the same as picking up the phone and calling her, or having a conversation with her while we weed the garden, or sharing a bottle of our favorite wine while we talk about what we would do when we win the lottery. 

I was fortunate enough to tell her how much I loved her and how proud I was to be her daughter.  I was also fortunate enough to be with her when she took her last breath while I held her hand.  And I am fortunate to know how much she loved me.

Some people aren’t as lucky as I am. 

Yes, I am changed.

New Series: Throw-Away Thursday

I don't make New Year's Resolutions. Because I break them by January 5 every year. So, rather than feel like a failure, I stopped making them. Until this year. Technically, I didn't make resolutions. I did, however, commit to make life changes.

One of the things I wanted for this year is to live a simpler and more organized life. I committed to doing one task each day to simplify my life. Most of the tasks are simple. For example, I cleaned the junk drawer out, and threw a ton of stuff away (good feeling.). Another day, I straightened up the laundry room shelf. I have been pretty consistent with my thinning.

In order to keep me in check, I am starting a series for 2013, called "Throw-Away Thursday.". Each Thursday, I will feature something that I am discarding. If I have to be accountable to someone, I am more likely to continue with this. Just wait...some of the things I have to toss are quite comical. (I tend to want to keep things, because what if I need it someday?)

Stay tuned...

Yours Truly,
Tara

My Maiden Voyage

Well, here goes nothing.  I have decided to try this blogging thing.  I have a lot to say, really to no one in particular.  Where do I start?

I am a 30-something mother of 2, wife of 1.  Oh, and I cannot forget my two 4-legged kids.  I work full-time outside of the home, but am hoping to change that within the next couple of years.  I love baseball (come on spring training).  I love a bargain, and get very excited when I see a Goodwill, especially if I am in another city.  Recently, I joined a fabulous company called Origami Owl.  Never heard of it?  Check out my website http://TaraL.origamiowl.com.

So, that is the basics about me.  I am eager to meet people, and look forward to getting feedback.  Thanks for reading about me and my life.  Chat with you soon!

Yours truly,
Tara